I'm wondering

I'm wondering why it's okay for my attorney to not present my case. I'm wondering why the attorneys and the judge have to go into private offices to talk instead of speaking in front of their clients. I'm wondering why the clients never got to hear the conversation or contribute to the conversation. I'm wondering why my attorney showed up. I know why I was there. It's my life we're talking about. I thought I knew why my attorney was there: to represent me. I was oh so wrong! Can you sue an attorney for not representing you? Can you sue an attorney for plotting with the opposing counsel to screw you over? These are the things I'm wondering tonight!